I want cry !!!How can u (GOD) treat me like that

Ish.... boon ling called me just now,and said how good how tired during she at UTM.And from her conversation ,she tell me almost all the people start their study already.This let me feel so sad.Ya i am only the one not stable.School dono have give me a place or not(the letter will send between end of July or early of Augest),Payment for work is so little.