I know you are the rainbow of my heart....~~~

Well saw ur things just now i get your mean,you wants to stoped what in ur mind for a long time ago.Both of us are too timid.The way that u tell me i am dono and not understand when u r using ur method speacially during singging.After i found out ,it was too late.Try want to treat u good but was fail when seeing you.I cannot or dono how to express how i love you for more than 2 years,besides that i still a girl even i older than you 3 month.Since i know this maybe is the last times to speak up all the things that around us too long.you said u feel a lot lighter now,but i telling you ,I am not !I am so sad now.Honestly i am thinking when u back this time i want to meet up with u personally and said clear to u for i have hide for so long ,i don't care what the answer i get from you but unless i have talk to you clearly in my life.And another reason why i didn't tell you early because one of our best friends always around with us when is getthering.So happy to see you when u back but when really infront of you i dono why so afraid to see your eye.Recall back what u had give me in my frienster hello kitty's background,birthday poet,give u all my password,it all that makes me so happy actually.I still remember form 5 that years,u and him sit infront of me ,he tell me how u like me,i am thinking ur all are jocking,think that if is joke how shame am i infront of you all if i make a respond.This until me when i selling chienses cookies,that our friends talk to me i just know he said is true.Seen to be ended soon,i must start from now learn to change my way.After online don't strickly to sign in MSN,see u are online or not,see ur dairy,cheack frienster,this fews day u also always in my dream,try to online speaciall my network conection is missing,will take note date when we have going out.I really dono i will really forgot do this things again or not because was repeated 3 years.I have hear from our good friend that you have a good girl friend always around at you and keeping ask all what is about with you.Then if we havent start need to end ,i hope u will very happy with her. Really~~~ T+ ----m.i.s.s---- +T ---->what is this symbol means that is because i miss you I don't how to guess ur feeling when u write ur blog but 90 % want to throw away what we had,and seems like want to draw a line as chienese we said hua qing jie xian.i really dono,because i always cannot get ur mean immediately.Beside that i know u will go to Amerika soon.As you said this is complicated.However i hope we still a friend and also the group member of zhi zi ren